Blue carpet.....

In the on going house saga, I have been learning a lot of patience. And thankfulness. Thankful that we do not have a time limit to when we need to move, thankful that we have family who has been so very helpful during this entire process. Thankful that we are able to buy a house before our one year anniversary.
It has been so frustrating to wait, for almost 3 months. So difficult to keep my focus on what I have been given, and not what I don't have. And painful to see that I have so much pride. The carpet is blue. 1990's blue. We will be saving to replace it, hopefully with wood floor. But in the meantime, we will be living on 20 year old, blue carpet. Although part of my aversion to this, is that there is 20 years worth of dirt and who knows what in the carpet, (I told Brad I will not take my shoes off until we replace the flooring!)most of it, if I am honest, is that ugly blue carpet, is embarrassing to me. I don't want to invite anyone over to see it, until the flooring has been replaced. I don't want anyone to see the carpet. How very prideful of me. I have lived in Peru, and seen people who live in shacks, with dirt floors, who were so happy to invite me in to their homes. And here I am, in a beautiful, spacious house, not wanting to invite anyone over because the carpet is not to my liking. It is really humbling to look at it that way. To think that I worry about what people will think of me, because of some carpet.
So as we prepare to paint, and move in, I will be continually praying that The Lord will be doing a work in my heart, to strip away a little bit more of my pride. To change my heart a little bit more, to open my eyes to how truly I am blessed. And to give me a heart to open my doors to anyone, and welcome them, happy to fellowship, on the blue carpet!